中文翻译:zax
Dayfly:不久后我就打算退役了。我从2002年8月开始我的魔兽生涯，至今我已经玩了ROC和TFT各一年。在刚上手TFT时就曾经萌生过隐退的想法。
当我在法国的ESWC遭受失败后，那3天我陷入痛苦之中，对自己的实力产生了怀疑。我唯一可以想的就是我真的输了，那时我近乎发狂。我只能通过不断的练习，更加刻苦的训练才能不再失败。回到韩国后，我离开了Ongamenet和MBC为了能更刻苦的训练，我不断的练习，不断的练习，最后我得出了结论：该结束游戏了。我退役的理由不是因为我那差劲的表现，也不是因为游戏的不平衡，而是一些来自我自己的游戏外的原因。
在ESWC的时候，那个打击实在太大了，使我在疯狂的边缘徘徊。我想做的更好，却事与愿违，而且压力从未如此大过。我第一次考虑到退役。（这段话，用韩语的话口气更强烈）
我是个高标准的人，我不想把自己的痛苦加个任何人。退役的决定对我来说并不简单，我不得不放弃我深爱着的职业。
我带着这些想法，上了Sonokong的怀”热械南殖」壑诤偷缡庸壑诙枷肟次业谋硌莺驼绞酰歉鍪笨涛矣Ω镁∥胰Φ模胰戳Σ淮有牧恕６晕艺庋桓鲆丫プ孕诺娜死此担熬∪Α碧蚜恕?lt;br>
对我来说最难说出口的就是：我已经尽力了，但实际上我没有。“我会尽力的...”，已经变得毫无意义。最后我可以不用考虑就面无表情的说出那句话，这是最悲哀的事情。以后，我如果找到另外一份工作，我一定会发自内心的去说这句话的。
目前对我来说很艰难，我已经无数次的去考虑过退役，因此我现在的走没有一丝遗憾和留念。看见包围着我的忠实的Fans慢慢离我远去，我很沮丧。人们可能还会记起那个坏脾气，卷头发，左撇子的小子吧，希望他们对我的印象还是个“正直，努力，为Fans改变自己的人”。我现在只有一个小小的愿望，当我走后，你们还记得我。
还好一些额外的赞助商的工资以及我的第2份工作帮了我很多，我想悄悄的离开这个舞台，保留我在玩家中的印象。
在我打MBC联赛的时候，我知道这是我最后一场比赛，，但仍然不愿意去面对“这是最后一场游戏”。我猜想输掉这场比赛可能对我更好点吧，我不想带着胜利的喜悦去退役。
我即将开始我的新工作，我一定会赚回来的，我有许多自信和勇气。
我一个人绝无法走到今天，要感谢每个帮助过我的人。我很抱歉我无法走下去了，谢谢你们支持我。我很抱歉写了这篇文章给大家。我已经做了决定，我不会为生命中的任一件事后悔，包括这次退役。
全部都说出来感觉好多了。我在基地的物品已经都整理带走了。可能会去台湾度假几天，好好的休息一下，遗忘掉一些东西。
最后，我想感谢我的fans，也为我的离开道歉。
Translated by Magic
For all you dayfly fans, well dayfly retired from warcraft,Imbriefly translating his statement from his daumcafe.(there arelotsof errors and proof reading needs to be done, translation eveninmy opinion is horrible because it just doesnt grasp thesameemotion dayfly delivers in his writings. in addition this wasdonein 15 minutes as I was reading it)
Dayflys statement
Dayfly:
I have been planning my retirement from WC3 for quite sometime.Ive started playing WC3 since the August of 2002 andcurrentlyits the August of 2004 and I have played both ROC and TFTequallyfor 1 year and Ive given my first consideration forretirementwhen I first got my hands on TFT.
When I first got eliminated at ESWC held in Frane, it was just3days of hell of disbelief, all I could think about was thefactthat Id lost and at the time I was going madly insane. Onlythingthat came kept me going was to practice more, try harder andneverto lose again. When I returned to Korea, I parted fromOnGameNetand MBC league and I kept on practicing and trying harder,as Ikept on playing and playing my final conclusion was reached,tofold the game. The reason being for my retirement wasntnecessaryfrom my poor performance nor the games imbalance but forpersonalreasons beyond the game.
At the time of ESWC, reality came strong as something I wassogood at came crashing down. It was seriously too hard onmementally at the time which made me nearly at the edge of sanity.Iwanted to do better but reality just wasnt allowing me to, andthestress was too immense. That is when I firstconsideredretirement.(this graph is lot more powerful in korean)
The words mentioned above is not my way of breaking down butmyway of clean retirement from this game. Im a type of personthatsets a high standard goal and really never mention my hardshipstoanyone. My decision for this retirement did not come easy. Thatiswhy I had to give up my job in which I truely loved to do..
While all these thoughts were going on, I had a match inSonokongand many of the viewers and spectators were expecting tosee myperformance and strategy, it was a moment where I had to trybesthardest even though it was out unwillingness. However, I didnttrymy hardest, it was just too hard for me to try my best withoutanyconfidence in myself.
One of the most hardest thing for me to do was to say that Ihadtried my hardest when I really havent at all. The phrase Iwilldo my best, became meaningless and eventually I started sayingitwithout giving any second thoughts to it, which was really sad.Implanning to use that phrase only when I truely mean to say itsuchas when I find a different job.
(Dayfly writes a long analogy to his current life to asituationin WC3)
Its really hard for my center now, and Ive given thisretirementcountless thoughts so Im leaving without any regrets orlingering.Its quite sad to see people around me drift apartslowly. Thepeople will probably remr as the bad tempered, curlyhaired, andcenter handed guy but hopefully people will rather remrme as adecent guy that tried his best to live an honest life andalso whohave changed for people around him. Theres a small hopefor methat the people would remr me while Im gone.
Even though the extra money from my sponsor and my 2nd jobisgreatly helping my family, I want to leave this scenewithoutfurther hurting my image in performance.
During my game at MBC league, I considered that game my verylastso I came prepared and ready, however I just couldnt focusfromthe fact that it was my last game. In addition, I guess itwould bebetter to lose the last game and look shabby then to winthe lastgame and look victorious.
Im willing to earn back as much as I gave up when Im startingmynew job. I have lots of confidence and courage to do so.
There is no way I could have come this far by myself and Iwouldlike to thank everyone that helped me to achieve this far.Imsorry I cant personally confront and thank all the peoplethathelped me get here. Im sorry that I had to post this publiclytoeveryone without mentioning my retirement to anyone. Ivealreadydecided and Ive pretty much never regretted anything in mylife sosame goes for retiring from gaming.
Sure feels good letting it all out. All my belongings inthepractice room is nearly cleaned out. Ill be on a vacationtoTaiawn for a few days so hopefully during my rest everything inmyhead can be all cleared out.
Finally, I would like to thank my fans that always cheered meon,and also like to apologize for my departure. (_ _)
Magic:End of Dayflys statement,
As you know, the long posts above me were all part ofdayflysstatement.
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